I changed in this agressive woman

Hi everyone,

Idk where 2 start.
Well .. I met my partner when I was 14 and back in highschool (2006). He , Steven, was 21 , I knew that and lied about my age I had said I was 17 because we met in this club , because I just wanted him so bad.
(I knew the age difference wasn't really right, but I wanted it
When where so in love, you know the puppy love stage.

He was a BadBoy and I loved that.
So 2 months of seeing each other , he just went off the radar.
There I was , alone ,worried , confused.

Days pass ,weeks starting to pass
Still no sign.
I thought I was played by him and started 2 move on.
Still 14

So I then , I began 2 talk 2 this boy ,Trey, again who I already had seeing before I met Steven. But because I fell in love with Steven , I had broken all contact with Trey, like everyone who goes from single 2 falling in love.

We all know ppl before getting in 2 a relationship.
But my difference was, I was 14-15, I was young. He left me with no words ,so I moved on.

So I was dating Trey (who was 18 at the time) for maybe 6 months now.
He treated me so nice and loving. And everything just went good, I had put Steven out of my had by this time , I was still wondering what happened 2 him but I had moved on..

Then all of a sudden, I was walking with my mom and a schoolfriend in the town mall.
There he was .. Steven!
Standing in a clothing store.
He saw me and boomm.
I told my mom 2 go ahead as me and my friend walked up 2 Steven.
He was nearly crying seeing me.

We met up 2 talk about his sudden disappearance.
He had fled ,the Netherlands (that's where we live)
And he went to the D.R.
2 hide out , because I got himself in trouble that's why he just ghosted everyone.

There was me , moved on with a new boyfriend. What was I supposed 2 do. I was 14 at the time he left.
I felt bad now, because if I knew why he left I would've waited on him.

So as much as I was in love with Trey. I just went and chose 2 be with Steven again.

Everything was nice and good, untill I started seeing lil signs of Steven being upset of the fact I had dated someone when he was gone, fanished.

We dated for maybe 7 months , I was now I think 16, still young.
When Steven got arrested for possessing a firearm , I knew about that.
He spent maybe 1 and half year in prison.
Months past by me visiting him , I was just alone and young.
I was thinking about how I didn't want this for myself.
I was alone for maybe 6mnths ,when I met Jeremy (18) I was prob 16ish 17.

So slowly I was moving on breaking myself away from Steven and getting closer to Jeremy.
Couple months (like 7 maybe) me and Jeremy where dating, with ups and downs. When I accidentally got pregnant. We where on medium good grounds.

I was shocked but I wanted 2 keep it because I was surrten that me and Jeremy where in love and ready.
Than Steven had called me , he still rang me maybe 1s a week 2 check on me, when I told him that I got pregnant.
And we couldn't call no more ,I was moving on, again.

So I was pregnant and happy.
Then I started noticing that Jeremy changed. He was first happy now he said he didn't want the baby and everything. There was I , thinking that Jeremy was my world and he tricked me first 2 be happy and now backing up, and telling me 2 get an abortion.
I was in disbelief. And thought how can you be so ignorant and heartless. I talked with my parents and was going 2 have a abortion. I realized that I was 2 young. And didn't want 2 have anything to do with Jeremy noo more ,so I fucked him off !
I stayed single for maybe 8mnths. (My best time) I was now 17 enjoying life like every other teenager at that age and wasn't planning on having no boyfriends no more.

When I got talked 2 by a friend of Steven (who was still in jail)
And he told me Steven had said if you see Kiki ask her number so he could give it 2 Steven.
With hesitation I gave my number.

Steven called me a couple days later , and yepp you prob already know .. Boom we just kicked off like we never had broken up.

He got out a coulpe off months later and we just got together and that was that.
I got pregnant of Steven when I was 18.
We had a beautiful boy.
I was 19 and a young mom.
And felt like this was what was meant 2 be All along.

When our son was 3mnths old , I went 2 visit my best friend. With the baby. And I came home like about 10.30pm .. it was a bit rainy.
As I walked in the house, Steven got really mad.
Because in his eyes I was late it was rainy and I was a badmom for being outside with the baby.
(Mind you, the stroller had rain protection , and I only had 2 walk 5 min from home 2 the Tram)
Slappp .. he hitt me.
I was shocked.


Days pas weeks pas .. we didn't talk about it.
I knew this wasn't right but I stayed.
We went on but from now we just had falling in a pattern of arguing bout lil things.

Couple years past.
We became parents of a lil prinses.

Our relationship was strong but it was cracked.

He was and still , now I am 28, blaiming me for my past choices.
For dating other guys when I wasn't with him.
I was young when that all happened.
I was losing my respect for him more and more .

Now we gone break up because..

Whenever he went out 2 go meet his friends and family , he never really answered his phone or keep me updated about his where abouts

When I got mad , when he came home like 2 - 6 am in the morning , I got really mad and upset.
Mind you I was changed in this agresive woman , because of hurt, because I had 2 hear day in day out for every mistake I made when I was 14..15.

Steven thinks , that I have no right 2 doubt or question him ,and if he does cheat I don't have the right 2 be upset because I did way more stuff 2 him.