He announced he is leaving…

We were together 17 years, two beautiful amazing boys. We met in a finance world but soon after second pregnancy i quit my job and started to take care of the kids, home. I was doing it very well, my husband carrier was up in the sky because i provided him with love, support, advice. I got myself into a burnout, where during the day i was still running the household and during the night had panic attacks. We started to get emotionally apart. Soon after my husband had depression because work was too much for him to handle. I was there for him, supporting.
Then corona, 2 years of working from home, chaos with kids…
He was offered a fantastic job in another country, but now he wants to leave me and start from the new page his life.
I feel betrayed because it was so sudden!
Yes, the last 9 months i was activwly helping ukrainian refugees, as im myself from Ukraine. I was sorting things for my parents.
It was too much on my plate! I really would like he talked to me.
But he announced he is leaving…
Im sad and broken
Sometimes pain is so strong i feel i cant take it anymore.
I exercise myslef hours in the gym to feel the physical pain in mucles, because emotional pain is so heavy😞